I’ve never really admitted it, but having no friends is really getting me down. I was part of a group of four best mates, but because of one of them I am now friends with one of them. That girl is supposed to be my ‘best friend’, we grew up together and have known each other for 20 years. But now, we don’t see each other for 6 months at a time and when we do it’s so awkward cos I know she’s been speaking about me to the other two. She never replies to my text messages, never invites me places and we live next door but one to each other most of the time.

I also have mates from Uni. One of them has just decided to ignore us all so that’s like Ok, whatever. The other one is still living in Aber and I miss her, but we are kinda keeping in contact and then the other one is my closest friend but MAN she can be a negative, moody cow.

My other mate has a kiddie and we hardly see each other and my other mate is in Uni in Southampton and is kinda like…. she’s just different.

I just wish I had a close friend that I could just hang around with all the time, like I used to do. I’ve drifted apart from so many people and I just feel shit. There’s nobody around if I feel sad, nobody to go to gigs with or just to the cinema or whatever.

My self esteem is like rock bottom and I have no idea how to make friends anymore.

I downloaded a sleep talking recorder app on my iphone, and all I discovered was that I have a cough.

I can now open a letter with one hand and scroll through Tumblr on the other.

Receptionist WIN!

You fools! You fooooooooools!

Eating a Frube, watching the IT Crowd and feeling sorry for myself…

I feel so bad turning all these interviews and jobs down. I better get a good job in Essex or I’ll feel really guilty. I just really wanna live in Essex!

with a cappuccino before I go out celebrating my 21st! Debating on hairstyles….